Where am I?

Created this blog to document my travels, experiences & thoughts thru Central & South America but hell plan to blog my travels to where ever. Goofy harmless Free Spirit hoping to spend most of my time with locals & enjoy the world! So hang on as I travel, drink cervezas, raise a little hell, maybe piss off a few people & hopefully not give Canadians a bad reputation! Of course don't do these things on purpose but while having a good time well "Shit Happens"!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

What can I say "Life is friggin amazing" & the best part is doing whatever/whenever like travelling to see the world. So hitting the Road Again!

I'd never trade my wonderful life, loving family or amazing friends for being someone else, being better in appearance or having more. I’ve become more chill, kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. Hell I've become my own friend. I don't worry about myself if all I eat are cookies all day, not being conventional, not being successful in my job, have a solid job or that I gave up a successful paying job cuz it wasn’t me anymore or whatever. Figure I'm entitled to march to my own drum, travel for months, be extravagant & not commit or be responsible, etc. So basically like I don't give a f*ck as I don’t care to go with the normal flow! Some people have called me a Friggin Crazy Idiot, Useless fool, Unconventional, Nonconformist, Free Spirit, etc. but gave up caring what others think long ago!

I've seen too many people who only work & don't enjoy themselves so they end up leaving this world; before they really understood the great freedom that comes with living. They've never had the freedom of doing whatever they want to but hell maybe it's just working! Hell people work to accummulate more money than they actually need & and still think they need more to travel, be comfortable or secure. Hell Security is a state of mind as some people aren't even secure with a million $$. They worry that they may lose it,  need a bigger house, car, whatever. But hell I don't worry or care about money as long as I can pay for a roof over my head & get some munchies. I'm not out to impress anyone with material things as can't understand why some ppl work so hard just to get so much material stuff! Cuz it's only stuff as u can't take all that shit with u !!!!! People should be satisfied with less of every thing, chill and enjoy what they got as Life is not a contest where the person who accummulates the most stuff wins! Hell we're all the same when we leave this place so why bust your butt to get a hot house, car, chick/guy on their arm cuz when we're on our death bed well we're all the same - so look at what really matters! Doing what we wanted to do in life and enjoy it with family, people we love or new people we meet!

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM and sleep until noon? I can sing & dance by myself to whatever awesome tunes I love, and at the same time be sad over a lost love .... even if the love was not really mine cuz it's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all! The important thing is I've loved life and had the love of the ones that count - my family and close friends!

Should I care what others think if I get another wild piercing, crazy tattoo, dress like a slob, act like a bit of a weirdo, say crazy things with no tact, not be in a relationship, not get laid whenever i want, etc. So what if someone from the opposite sex doesn’t give you a second look or thinks you’re a loser! Life isn’t about being attractive to people but having solid relations/friendships with your family & people you consider friends! Those that mind don’t matter & those that matter don’t mind, like how you look as they see the inner you! Hell life isn’t about being rich & having a hot car, beautiful house, hot partner, etc. Success is being content with your life, having true friends and family that care for you! Cuz these people are true & don’t judge you on those things. But they are there for you, are loyal, dependable, helpful & listen to you, etc.

So what if I walk the beach with or without any clothes even if I may ugly, short and some think I may look out of shape! Cuz I can still dive crazily into the waves with abandon if I choose, despite the laughter from the jet set who find it disgusting. Hope they, too, can get to the point in life someday where they just don't give a fuck! I don't care what people say about me cuz have thick skin & have enough self confidence to do what I feel I like to do!

So what if I smoke some weed, have a few drinks & party like a Rock Star! Hell like should I worry if some people may judge me for it! It’s about doing what I want to do and not what society thinks as most people live by those standards. Shit I live within the legal, moral & safe life boundaries, well at least most of the time! But there again, some of my life may just as well be forgotten. As I only want or can remember the important things.

Sure, over the years my heart may have been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose someone you loved who's a family member or close friend, a relationship ends, a child or someone you care for suffers, or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine & sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect. The thing to remember are the good times we shared with the people who we miss or are suffering!

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have travelled, met some cool people from many countries who have become my friends. So what if my youthful laughter may be forever etched into deep grooves on my homely face. So many have never laughed, said to hell with society, did what they felt like doing and never left their comfort zone.

I don't worry about getting older as it's easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think! It sets people free. But until that time I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever as just found out there's an Expiry Date on our time here! But while I'm still here, I won't waste time worrying what others think or worry about what will be. So what if I smoke or drink every day or couple times a day (if I dam well feel like it).

But my hope is that any of my friendships never come apart especially since it comes straight from the Heart! So may you always have an awesome Smile on your face & in your heart forever and ever.

Love your Family & Friends Forever!

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